after two less than decent grades in journalism classes and a deep contempt for communication studies in general, i have decided that if i want to be a journalist it will be in my own time and on my own conditions. it’s just not for me right now. not a goal i am interested in pursuing.

i have decided that i am going to drop all of the bull shit people that are floating around in my life. this included someone that was supposed to be my best friend. she sold me out for my ex boyfriend who i had a long term battle with up until 11 months ago. she lived with me through most of this battle but moved back to the town where we met and went back to all of our old friends who i had decided to leave behind.

over the course of the last year it has been impossible to keep touch with her for many reasons. the last couple of months have been the last straw. she won’t talk to me about me, she avoided coming to visit when she said she would because i was in the hospital three days before and she “couldn’t deal with it” and has avoided communication with me far enough to when i started to make my attempts more frequent, she asked me why i was all about her all of the sudden.

with this, i promptly suggested (in nicer words) that she fuck off. i am tired of that shit and frankly, that wasn’t a very nice thing to say.

along with my oldest brother and his ex girlfriend and an old family friend, kate is out of the picture. i don’t have time for wishy washy assholes. that’s not dwelling, is it?

i made at least two new friends. one of them moved home because her parents are nazi christians (the two usually are mutually exclusive). the other just moved to california for the summer.

now i am stuck to the old evil friends for the time being. i hope to make more new friends, but i did it!